Work

I'm tired of work. I would like to have a simple job this week. Chopping wood, landscaping, bricklayer, something along those lines. Something I could get lost in. Something where I didn't have a bunch of people relying on me.

20 minutes @ 2230

Tonight was good. I let my mind wander off about painting. I just watched the paint roll off the brush tonight. It was enjoyable. I pictured the paint, thick and colourful. The rest of the time I just enjoyed breathing. I feel really relaxed.

20 minutes at 2300

Been a while since I've posted here. I've been pretty good about meditating though. I think I've missed a few days in the past couple weeks, but other than that, I've been doing well.
Tonight was really really really good. =) J. says I've missed a whole week actually. I disagree. Anyway, tonight was great. I felt so so calm. After what I think was about 10 minutes of focusing on my breath and then on my body, I was totally relaxed. I started in on thinking of myself and those around me in a most positive way. I went through several people in my life, then focused on myself gaining more and more positive energy, radiating it outward to everywhere. Then I went back to my breath and body. I was there when my alarm went off. I stopped it, and came out of meditation slowly. I didn't really want to, even after 20 minutes of sitting.
Until next time. =D Happy Mother's Day!

15 minutes

I cut it short tonight. Meditation has been a chore all week. Sometimes I'm just not into it. I need a bit of inspiration. Plus, I'm tired of staying up until midnight every night. 5 hours of sleep every night catches up to you after 4-5 days in a row. I can do it, it just makes it hard to meditate. I've continued to drag myself through meditations all week though. I think it will improve soon.